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My semester abroad is flying closer and closer! Blue already left the country yesterday for England, since his program starts a week-ish before mine, and I've started counting down "lasts" for this. It seems silly, since I'll be back in a few months anyway, but still. I'll return twenty years old, first of all---a bona fide twenty-something! And the big thing is that I'm going to miss Grey. We have a few more good days to spend together before we leave, but I'm just really going to miss hugging him, and kissing him (not to be TMI), and just being together, in the same place, through more than just a computer screen. I really love him, and being able to spend so much time together this month has been amazing---it's practically spoilt me rotten. I really love him, you guys!

We had lunch together yesterday---frozen pizza while we watched TV. It was really nice. We relaxed and rested together on Sunday. And it hit me just how blessed I am to have him. In every particular, he's amazing, and we match together so perfectly. He's accepting of me being trans, he helps me work through my insecurities, he's a major goofball and a video game nerd, he goes to church with me, he values communication and emotional openness, and need I go on? He's the greatest blessing in my life at the moment---up there with going to England with my best friend!

I had some mishaps with my hormone doctor, which basically means that I don't have an appointment scheduled before I leave, although I thought I did, and so I'm freaking out about that. I'm going to call them today or tomorrow---I already sent a message/e-mail but no response so far. I'm about running out of my HRT and I'm going to need a refill. AUGH! God help me.

And I haven't even started packing yet. BUT thanks to my dad my white MacBook with the broken charging port is finally up and running again! And in fact, I'm writing from it right now. :) So life isn't all stress. But anyway, toodles!

My fellow Dreamwidther lovelyangel put it well, saying that she feels besieged. I never realized what my current feeling was! But no, my room has been suffering, for one. I'm working extra hours this week, mostly four-hour shifts, five days straight, because apparently I'm the only evening cashier that didn't ask for this coming weekend off. Which is unfortunate, because my supervisor told me about that just as I was about to ask for that weekend off. I had four days in a row off last weekend--Saturday through Tuesday--but I only had one day--Monday--where I didn't have stuff to do all day, and even then I somehow ended up going out to run errands with my mum.

Saturday I did a defensive driving class in a town nearby. The local police department/highway whatever was running the show and we were using their track, but it was on some sort of military base, so we had to go through security and all! It was really freaky. But now I can say I've been on a military base! Basically, it was teaching us panic braking, how to react if we spin out on ice, etc. Fun but tiring, especially given the fact that it's stupidly hot. If anyone reading this lives up north where it's not that hot--APPRECIATE IT!

Sunday, Blue and I hung out and honestly I can't remember what else happened! I want to say we watched a movie but I can't remember which one.

Monday, I did errands and worked some on thinning out the clothes in my closet, since I have way too many.

Tuesday, after the library, my mum and I had a quick lunch at home and then Blue came over! We watched The Beautician and the Beast--a really good movie! And then we played Wii Music and swiped on my dating apps together--but the dating thing is a story for another time.

Meanwhile, I'm trying to get on HRT and on ADHD meds as soon as I can, I have to work a lot, I have to figure out when to hang out with my friends (which is like putting a damn jigsaw puzzle together with all our schedules), and I have to get my room in good shape, thin out my closet, and start packing and buying textbooks for school. AGH! I need a few days to crash out, honestly. I thought summer was supposed to be relaxing! But I can never get in bed until near midnight and so I'm tired all the time. I think I might have to work less next summer... Oh, and I'm also trying to coordinate my study abroad, which I really want to do, but I haven't done my application yet because of time! Maybe I work on that this afternoon--if I have time. Or maybe I just veg out and/or nap. God knows I need it.

Okay, just a bit of dating--some guy came through my till last night to ask me out! He just asked if I wanted to go out for coffee--I guess he found me cute and asked me out on a whim. I've never actually been asked out before! Well, I'm talking to this guy on-line and we've agreed that when I'm in his city we're going to go on a date. This small-town lack of options is not cutting it for someone whose dating pool is already small to begin with since I'm trans. But both of those guys are really nice :)

So yes, I'm quite besieged. God grant me a better week next week--and a heck of a lot more rest!