Insomniac Hell

I feel like this week I'm trapped in a vicious cycle. I'm tired, which exacerbates my ADHD symptoms, which means I can't do anything, which makes me stressed, which keeps my mind racing so I can't really sleep. Repeat ad nauseam, or in my case, ad insanitum. Yesterday I was awake from 4:30 to 7:30 (I think I might have been too anxious about homework) and had to skip my morning classes, I was so exhausted. I slept in and still only ended up with 8 hours of sleep. Last night I went to sleep find at a normal time but now I've been awake since about 4. (As has my roommate. When they talked about cycles syncing up, I didn't know they meant sleep cycles...)

And I've been busy without a break this week. The freshmen's activities fair was earlier in the week, which meant that I had to sit at a table advertising the K-Pop Club for hours. That was also coincidentally the day I was starting my ADHD meds, and so I had palpatations and I was just kind of in a weird state. The voices in my head were finally shutting up--now if only they could shut up at night!

I feel like I tend to go through cycles of insomnia. I had a little this summer, i think, but not too bed. Before that, summer 2022 and summer 2020 were pretty bad. So hopefully it'll just fix itself with time.

I haven't had my meds since the day I had palpatations, but I'll try it again today. Who knows? Maybe it'll work a bit better. In any case, I have a psychiatrist's appointment next week so hopefully she can clarify all this.

It really feels a bit like I've been hit by a truck this week, as an acquaintance put it last night. But I suppose I'll have to soldier on and try and get my work done at a semi-adequate level. I have to take a quiz I missed yesterday when I skipped English, but luckily it's open-note. Now I just need to... take notes.

Does anyone have any tips? This freaking sucks and I'm kind of just done now. Agh!! Maybe I need to start working out. Only I hate working out and it makes me deeply uncomfortable. And I kind of feel lethargic just typing this right now... probably just a walk would suffice to start with. I'm going home for the weekend, anyway, so I could take a walk around the trail in my neighbourhood. Now that's something I'd love to have here. But I go to college in the dinkiest little town, so no go. I have one or two non-shady blocks of town and a tiny campus to walk around, unless I fancy crossing the Street with a Traffic Light and going to Wal-Mart. Which I don't, because it's something like two miles away and still an hour's walk. And it's Wal-Mart

Well, it's off to go slog through some homework so hopefully I don't have to stress about it this weekend. God help me.