PurpleHello98

Here it is: the long-promised visiting-Blue post! I'll just start from the beginning.

I got there pretty late Wednesday night, and we didn't have energy or time to do pretty much anything besides eat a little pizza, go on a short walk, try in vain to stalk our old classmates on Instagram and go to bed.

Thursday we went to a little cafe on campus and I had a nice Danish while reading Blue's college's newspaper. I felt like I should have been smoking a pipe and wearing tweed. Then I got to wait in his college's library whilst he went to his classes, and I got some nice creative writing done! Which was very refreshing to do, after neglecting my poor draft of a novel for so long. After that, we went back to the dining hall for lunch and I met some of Blue's college friends. It was really nice to meet them and they were quite a fun bunch! Afterwards, we went to go thrifting. We went to this thrift store we went to last year where I had found a lot of cute dresses last year and had built up in my mind as a sort of thrifting Mecca, and it disappointed. I got a dress or two but wasn't enthusiastic about them, though I had other things on my mind as well that I thankfully got to talk out with Blue.

After that, we chilled watching Gilmore Girls and eating bad Chinese food we got delivered. (The dumplings, for one, tasted like the smell of turpentine.) We saw his friend again since Blue let one interview him and then I got to do a radio show on Blue's college radio station! I've never been ~on the airwaves~ before, so it was MONDO COOL!!!

The next day I got to tag along with him to his classes. His Methods of Religion (or whatever) class was really cool! I didn't do the reading but still got to participate in the discussion! It was so great to be in an intellectually stimulating environment after my nothing classes this semester. Meanwhile, Latin was fun! We had lunch with his friends again and then he took me to a thrift store near campus where he bought a fliptonne of stuff. (Haha, it's not only me that buys clothes!!) Then we took the train (something I insisted upon) and stumbled upon this cute little mall where I got my favourite, mango bingsu! Then we went back to his college to meet a friend for a concert.

We saw Sammy Rae and the Friends in downtown Portland at this cute little cafe! We ate dinner there before as well, and I got to chat a lot with one of Blue's college friends. I ended up extremely exhausted after doing so much stuff for two days, but made it through the concert. The opener was more up my ally than the main act, but both were quite good but not my typical style. It was a great experience, though!

Blue's family moved to a different state and it really hit me for the first time that he won't be coming home to our hometown anymore for summer or Christmas. I miss him! <3

Then, the next day, his friend drove me to the airport and I said goodbye to the West Coast once more. Till next time!

A decent amount more has happened since but that's for another blog post, right? Talk to y'all soon!

I'm having rather a pleasant morning. When I arrived last night, Blue and I were rather too tired to do anything save shovel food into our hovels and go to bed, but this morning we're in this cute little cafe working! Well, I should be working on my French essay, but instead I'm going to take this rare opportunity to work on my novel. It's not actually that rare of an opportunity, but I have low motivation and energy most of the time, and since my French essay is the only homework I have during the break and Blue has a good amount of work to do, it's a pretty sweet deal.

Now then, off to be a writer. Ta-ta! 

That's right, I'm typing this from my new laptop! (And angrily so, because Dreamwidth ate this post twice already.) Veronica, my old 2019 MacBook Air, was pretty geriatric, and after my beloved 2009 white MacBook Valerie passed away recently, it was time for a new one. She's an Acer, and I love her! She's pretty good at games, even, and cute (she reminds me of 2015 laptops stylistically!!) and I can't wait to decorate her and write so many blog posts together and everything. I imagine us skipping through a field, hand in hand together. And honestly, WIndows 11 isn't nearly as bad as I thought, though I'm still trying to figure out how to get rid of all the crap they shove down your face.

Last weekend was super eventful! Friday night I went over to Red's, and she had some very exciting news! I don't know if I can share it with you but we went out for dinner to celebrate! :) And then went shopping at Walmart, where I got a really cute bedazzled denim skirt! Then, we stayed up late making these adorable press-ons - hers were Halloween-themed, and mine were purple with white stripes and polka dots! We stayed up till nearly 5, as is our wont to do.

The next day, I went into the city to go shopping with this someone from high school who I recently got back in contact with! Let's call her Peach. I found out she also transitioned and so I reached out to congratulate her, and since she's not confident in fashion or anything I decided to become her fashion mentor. We got some cute stuff from Hot Topic and Target! I hope I was able to give her a confidence boost and everything.

Then, I spent the night at Grey's! He's such a sweetheart, he cooked me a steak dinner! ^_^ And then we watched Halloween. It was a good movie! Though I feel sorry for all the poor teenagers who dared to have sex. Anyhow, my gradual descent into horror movies continues! It was really nice to spend the night with my honey <3

And now it's back to the hell of schoolwork for another couple days. At least we're watching a movie in my junior seminar right now! Though it has a delightful transphobic caricature. Anyway, later I really need to start working on my French midterm essay... holy crap, this is hellish. God help me. Anyways, I'll talk to y'all later!

...is what I would have been saying yesterday afternoon if I were on The Weakest Link. Thankfully, I was not the weakest link in terms of phonebanking! If you don't know what phonebanking is, it's where you call voters in a certain district and talk to them about a specific candidate. I've been involved with a political organization campus lately, and Eggshell introduced me to a Discord server where I've been able to start phonebanking a bit! Our organization on campus does some phonebanking too, but of course it's when the club I run meets, so no matter how much Eggshell wants me to join I can't. I pretty much only got sympathetic voters, which was nice, although I was hoping to have a funny anecdote of someone saying ridiculous crap at me. I'm not sure if I made an actual difference, per se, but at least I had fun!

I had kind of a hard weekend. I was feeling really insecure about my friendships for a number of reasons. I felt left out, like a "floater friend" without anyone who wanted me to be in their inner circle, and I was in kind of a dark place for a while. I'm feeling better now, but still struggling with those insecurities a bit. I want lasting, deeper friendships from college, and so far most of my closest people are from high school or my summer job. It's especially hard since Rose moved, when I considered her to be my best friend here. At least I am getting to spend more time with Eggshell this semester, though.

I won my first Magic game this weekend, though! I played Burgundy using (I think) a green/black deck and won :D it made me really happy! I also got introduced to a new game I can't remember the name of that I totally love. She did beat me at Blokus Duel today but I'll beat her sometime... revenge will be exacted.

Last night I got to hang out with Salmon and Periwinkle before our club and it was pretty great. :) I like it when people ask me to hang out, since often I'm the one asking people. But I wanna hang out with them more often! Same with Burgundy and Eggshell. Though this weekend I'm going home, and next weekend I'm out of town, so I can't hang out much with people for a couple weeks... >.<

That's about it from me for now. I've got a busy rest of my week! I may blog at the weekend or in a few days to let you know how everything goes. I have a lot planned this weekend as well! Toodles :)

 My last entry was pretty grim, right? Well, thankfully, there is little balm for the lonely soul like friendship. Thursday night I had a nice long call with Red, and Friday the roommates (Burgundy, Graphite and Mallard) and I ended up watching the SnapCube Sonic '06 fandub. Not quite as good as the Kingdom Hearts dub, but that one's hard to beat (with a banger theme song to boot).

Saturday Burgundy and I had a girls' night! We did our nails (I did a cute sort of shimmery look thanks to her hack—for a shimmery top coat, mix mica powder and clear polish! Probably body-safe!) and watched Pitch Perfect 2, plus had fried chicken and made questionable smores nachos/casserole. (We intended it to be nachos but we had to use forks to eat it so I think it's a casserole.) We put quinoa chips (Burgundy is gluten free), a couple kinds of chocolate and marshmallows in a Tupperware and nuked it, and it came out... pretty decent!

And then Sunday, I called Blue and Green. I miss them! I called Blue yesterday as well—his family recently had a move, and it's so weird to process for everyone. When I go back home over Thanksgiving, the winter break... one of my best friends in the world will be missing when he's been a fundamental part of that place for so long.

Eggshell has been sucking me into glorious sidequests as always. He gave me, Graphite and Mallard free pizza tonight, and the other day we had an extremely long conversation at our dorm's front desk for some reason. It's part of his charm and honestly some of my favourite moments of college, even if it does make me procrastinate my homework to a regrettable degree.

Grey and I watched Legally Blonde 2: Red, White and Blonde on call today since he couldn't visit me like he had planned. It was really good! Some of it was a teeny bit outlandish, but of course I love Elle and Legally Blonde enough to forgive it. It's inspired me to bedazzle my iPod and cell phone!!

So yeah. Spending some time with loved ones, even if through a phone or computer, really does solve everything—or at least make it easier to deal with.

P.S. Totally aced my Hiragana quiz today!!!!!! ^O^

I'm sleepy again. >.< I keep staying up late, but I guess Lorie did sing, "coucher tard, lever tôt, toujours pas sommeil, dans mes écouteurs une love, une love song", so I can pretend I'm a glamorous French socialite who goes to clubs all the time. Meanwhile, I was just working on an essay for my junior seminar and reading a little bit because otherwise I never get time to read.

Wish me luck! I'm donating blood later today. I've had bloodwork but never donated any, so I'm a bit nervous.

I found this list/blog meme in Tiffany from Girls' Generation's old Xanga blog from '05. She's so iconic!! And just a massive inspiration to me. :) so I decided to fill it out myself.

1) Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:
chicken nuggets, cheez-its, pop-tarts (yeah my diet is so healthy, why do you ask?) and the mini metro ipod touch app (courtesy of burgundy getting me hooked, it's totally cool!!)
2) Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink : 
mainly just water?? occasionally iced tea or dr pepper
3) Last Time You Cried:
yesterday afternoon! I couldn't work on any of my homework and nothing else sounded appealing, so I literally just went insane and cried because I didn't know what to do at all.
4) What's In Your CD Player?:
i don't normally listen to CDs, moreso my ipod.
5) What's Under Your Bed?:
my desk, with my pc and everything! ^_^
6) What Time Did You Wake Up Today?:
8:30
7) Current Hair?:
long, blonde with faded purple streaks
8) Current Clothes?:
pink pyjama shorts, black tank top and black hoodie from my bf's college :)
9) Current Desktop Picture?:
on my desktop it's a purple-on-white frutiger metro design with just curly wisps and stuff, and on my laptop it's purple-on-purple frutiger metro with stars and circles
10) Current Worry?:
am i ever gonna get in bed at a decent hour?
11) Current Hate?:
social insecurities, being far from my bf
12) Favorite Places To Be?:
in my bf's arms :) <3 besides that, out exploring London or Seoul or my hometown! also at the mall :)
13) Least Favorite Place?:
in the bathroom for a long time
14) If You Could Play An Instrument?:
prob piano?? w a digital keyboard it cld be very versatile!
15) Favorite Color(s)?:
PURPLE!!!
16) How Tall Are You?:
i'm not exactly sure but somewhere between 5'7 and 5'11
17) Favorite expression?:
facial or speech? for facial, a cute, wide eye smile, speechwise, i purposely overuse "per se" and in the wrong way, per se, (exhibit a!) (rhyme away!) because i think it makes me sound like a good, entertaining storyteller. a bit like tana mongeau.
18) One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To:
if you had asked me this a while ago I would've said josh, this guy i met when i was in korea and talked to. the one who dumped me. but not anymore. i finally got over him thanks to the help of my lovely grey :) <3 but i don't know who anymore. maybe my grandad? he's the only major person that's not in my life anymore that i can't reach out to at all.
19) Favorite Day(s)?:
in the summer, sundays, because i get to go to church, i have the day off, and i spend time with grey! <3 these days probably fridays or saturdays since i have the least commitments and can hang with my friends. :)
20) Where Would You Like To Go?:
i'd like to go back to london maybe, but only to visit. and maybe it's a bit soon after my last difficult experience for another visit.
21) Where Do you want to live when you get married?:
near all my friends so we can drop in on each other like sitcom characters!
22) Favorite food?:
mango bingsu, olive garden breadsticks, goldfish crackers
23) Color of most clothes you own:
purple, pink and blue. purple is maybe the most but i may just be biased as it's my favourite. but i don't wanna ONLY wear purple yknow? i need variety
24) Number of pillows you sleep with?:
only 1, but it used to be 2. i may need to get another bc my 1 is kinda flat on my dorm bed.
25) What do you wear when you go to sleep?:
pj shorts or sweats, tank top and maybe a hoodie?
26) What were you doing 12AM last night?:
talking w my fab roommate burgundy!
27) How old will you be in 10 yrs?:
30! that's weird to think about.
28) What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?:
i don't know. hopefully working, living a happy and loving life together with grey, spending time with friends and still pursuing my hobbies and passions.
29) Do you have braces?:
nope!!
30) Are you paranoid?:
not so much paranoid as socially insecure sometimes
31) Do you burn or tan?:
burn >.<
32) What is the brand of your wallet?:
i just checked and it's not got a brand! O_o i just got it at a thrift store recently.
33) Your alarm clock?:
i have a proper real alarm clock i've had for ages! tho my roommate's cellphone normally wakes me up first as her phone is a minute faster than my clock
34) Your hair?:
normally either down or occasionally in a pony tail. i braid it to wear to sleep. i wanna wear it up more often!!
35) Computer?:
desktop (mac mini running windows xp) and laptop (white macbook running mavericks)
36) Notebook?:
i have a bunch!! for all my classes. and yet still never enough >.<
37) First real memory of something?:
yknow i'm not 100% sure. maybe either eating a leaf off my mum's houseplant pretending 2 b a brachiosaurus or running around in my underwear pretending to be a giant saying "fee fi fo fum" like i saw on pbs kids.
38) First screen name?:
actually purplehello98!
39) First piercing/tattoo?:
none yet but i'm maybe getting my ears pierces before i turn 21. idk if i'll ever get a tattoo though.
40) First enemy?:
the first one i can remember is this guy in first grade i hated because a) he wore his polo uniform shirt all the way unbuttoned and i didn't want to see that and b) he brought in these gluten free cupcakes for his birthday once because he had celiac's and i thought they were gross -n- poor guy!
41) Good cry?:
yesterday!
42) Last library book checked out?:
the third gilmore girl by kelly bishop a few weeks ago! the last dvd, however, is the movie bring it on. i'm having salmon and maybe another friend over to watch it tomorrow!
43) Last person you yelled at?:
i don`t know! :/ ... it's been a while. i think maybe when i was freaking out about my scholarships and stuff because my uk uni won't send my grades over so i can't get my scholarships yet! so i was really scared and freaking out and i think i yelled at someone to leave me alone or something.
44) Last beverage drank?:
water! ^_^
45) Last crush?:
grey ^3^ if that counts!
46) Last CD/song played?:
last song was i just wanna dance by tiffany from snsd, whose blog i found this from! last album was the spirit room by michelle branch, which i totally love!
47) Last thing you ate?:
fruit snacks :3
48) Last annoyance?:
my ipod broke yesterday and i don't think it can be fixed!!!! >:(
49) Last disappointment?:
i called grey when i was crashing out yesterday and he didn't really know what advice to give me, because he was exhausted himself. i figured it out in the end though!
50) Last thing you wrote?:
an e-mail to my seminar professor asking him to POST THE FRIGGIN ESSAY PROMPT!!!!!!!!!!
51) Last words spoken?:
asking my flatmate graphite if he was alright! turns out he's just really focused on his genshin mission :)

i challenge you all to do this too!!

By some miracle my afternoon was totally free today, so I decided to sit down and finally update my blog about the start of the school year!

I had been considering moving into an apartment for this year, and had even looked at a couple over the summer--though all of them were basically falling apart, so I moved back into the dorms. And I'm so glad I did, because I totally hit the lotto! My roommate from fall semester last year moved in with someone else and I was late applying to everything anyhow because until about March I thought I would be in France this semester, so I ended up entrusting my fate once more to the random roommate selection. Mallard didn't know I was coming back to my knowledge until this summer but by a stroke of fate we became suitemates again! We always got along well and are in the same friend circle, so that was reassuring. Plus, I got mondo lucky with my roommate proper, this girl Burgundy. Through a moment of pure psychicness, we both brough our Wii Us and several games, plus our 3DSes and several games for that, and we have a lot of similar gaming interests, so that's going really great so far! Plus she's also trans, so we've been able to bond over that, and we're getting along fabulously so far and have had a lot of bonding moments. ^_^ I'm really excited to room with her this year!

There's also another suitemate, whom we'll call Graphite. i haven't talked to him a lot so far as he's on the quieter side, but he's also cool. :) We all get along and Burgundy and Graphite have also kind of entered our group.

I kind of forgot how nice it is to be in an environment where you have a lot of friends! England was really isolating, so it's nice to be back here where almost all my friends (save my lovely Grey, Red, Blue, Green and now Rose (RIP to her living here btw! i miss you girl <3)) are and where I can occupy myself socially really well. In fact, this is pretty much the first alone time I've had all week, which is a nice feeling in a way. Although it's weird to be doing nothing in my dorm in the middle of the day. But my schedule this year is such that that's the way it is: Tuesdays and Thursdays my only class gets out at noon, and on Tuesdays I don't have anything after. Normally I'd probably spend this time in the library until dinner, but I was tired today (Burgundy and I stayed up until 3 AM talking again last night, which is really fun but we do tend to live to regret it the next morning when we don't want to get out of bed) and the only thing I could be doing academics-wise is working ahead for my asynchronous history class, but that stuff isn't due till September so I'll give myself a day of grace, especially since with packing, unpacking, starting classes and all, I've been chock full schedule-wise for the past week straight.

Speaking of starting classes, my classes are going well so far! I have five: two French literature classes (both with the professor I had spring semester of freshman year), Japanese 101 (I wanted to take a third language), my junior seminar (China as a Cultural Crossroads) and a one-credit on-line history class for a state requirement. I'm worried it might be too easy a workload, but it's much better than burning out! We'll see how it progresses throughout the semester. :)

(The rest of this was written later in the evening.)

I went out to dinner with Forest, Marble and Marble's boyfriend Cochineal tonight! It was great to catch up with them after so long apart, though it felt weird as well, a little like we had to get to know each other all over again. But I hope we can all hang out much more this semester and be as close as we used to be. Forest has a smaller meal plan, though, so we have to drop one of our two weekly dinners. :( Oh well! I might see if any of them want to come over to my dorm sometimes or something, assuming my roommates would be alright with it. I need to make sure I get back into a rhythm with hanging out with friends, having a couple reliable hangouts/catchups each week to make sure that I don't get isolated or anything. Like, for example, me and Red and our weekly Thursday girls' nights. I've noticed that consistency is key in maintaining friendships! So let's hope and pray that I can keep it.

That's about it for now! Now, I should get back to writing my fanfic---my latest chapter is a week late! (ToT) And I have the only non-AI fic for this certain ship on AO3 for the past five years, so I feel a certain obligation. Toodles!

Both of the summer, and potentially of my employment at the Grocery Store Job.

I move in two weeks from yesterday, and I really want to make the best of the last of the summer. Luckily, I have some help with that---Blue's finally going to be back in town from his Oregonian internship! He gets in on Sunday, and we're going to spend a good amount of time together this coming week. I miss him! It's been busy enough we've only been talking on the phone occasionally---which I will do better about this school year!---and I feel like I haven't actually seen him in an age. We've been trying to see what we can do about our annual St. Louis road trip with Green---I really hope we can get it done with all three of us again this year!

Meanwhile, I've been spending most of my time with Grey and Red. I've neglected Green somewhat this summer, which I'm also sorry about! Since I have my weekly things with Grey---I spend one night a week at his place---and Red---we have our weekly girls' nights---it's easy to make sure I always have time blocked off for them, but with people like Green and my other friend Sepia, it's hard to block off time to hang out, especially since my shifts vary so much. Which, speaking of, I only saw Sepia once this summer, which I totally regret! Hopefully the next time she's in town we can meet up, but I think she moved back into her college today.

Speaking of moving, I got to help Red move recently! It was really fun. She found a better place in town, and so the other day I got to go over and help her pack some of her stuff. it's always fun when we hang out, and we watched Boys Over Flowers together too, and sang karaoke. We may have been so loud as to annoy her neighbours, but she's about to move, so who gives a damn? So we were productive as well as having wacky fun, and she also found a couple things she gave to me! Like a belt with a butterfly buckle. I've been wanting a belt with a statement buckle for a while now!

I'm kind of excited to move back into the dorms, actually. Mallard is a suitemate again this year, by total happenstance! Plus, I'm pretty sure my roommate-roommate is a fellow trans girl, which seems cool. I hope we become friends!

Plus, I'm only taking four classes this semester, so I should have a more manageable workload between classes, the K-Pop Club, teaching, having a social life and other hobbies. And Grey and I are gonna visit each other and spend whatever time we can manage together. :) A couple of my friends are gone (Rose moved across the state and Auburn dropped out) but I should still have plenty of friends there. I'm optimistic about this semester and ready to romanticize being in college again!

Tonight I'm having dinner with Grey at his dad's house---very exciting! I'll update soon with how that goes. For now, toodles!

My Fourth of July vacation with Grey was fabulous! I got to meet his aunt---we'll call her Aunt Oatmeal for blog purposes---and her two sons, plus his mom's boyfriend. Everyone was totally great and I'm a part of the family now. :)

I was nervous because two of his adolescent cousins were going to be there, and if you know my history with my little cousins you'll know they're very rambunctious, so I was worried it would be too much for me. But they were both really kind and polite, just like the rest of Grey's family. I love them all!

Some highlights:

• The gorgeous place we were staying---this farmhouse in a nice little village about half an hour from our hometown. Across the road was a bright red barn amidst a field of corn---it couldn't have been more picturesque if it tried. (And it did---our third day, there was a double rainbow above the beautiful cornfield.
• Playing tons of board games! My favourite was this one about buying up train tracks, the name of which is currently lost to me. (Drat.)
• Aunt Oatmeal and I bonded over a shared adoration of Oatmeal Creme Pies---hence the nom de blog!
• Relearning D&D! I hadn't played since senior year of high school but we did a little mini-cmapaign.
• One night, pretty much everyone went to see a nearby landmark and so Grey and I got a few hours to ourselves. We watched an episode of Golden Girls, he started teaching me Magic: The Gathering, and we got to have a nice romantic slow dance. We had talked about going away just the two of us for a weekend but funds prohibited us going through with it so that was a little taste of that.
• Getting up to watch the sunrise together. :) And also getting to wake up together every day and fall asleep together every night. It just feels so right. I wish that could happen every day.

Since then it's been largely more of the usual. Working too much, getting a bit burnt out, hanging out with Grey and Red. This summer is going by a bit faster than I'd like it to. I feel like I haven't had enough time for a lot of the things I've wanted to do. I'm going to work less next summer, I think. Even Blue and Green, two of my best friends in the world, fell to the wayside a bit---I went out and caught up with Green today for the first time in a zillion years and I hadn't called Blue for most of a month when I called him last week. I don't want that to happen next year. Plus my hobbies and decluttering have all fallen by the wayside too. It's kind of sad. This summer wasn't my dream summer---or hasn't been so far. But I still have time to make the most of it. :)