PurpleHello98

This year was a really great year, guys! So I thought I'd do a little blog post to review everything that's happened this year. :)

Spring semester of my freshman year was not super eventful but was pretty cool! I got to deepen my friendships with people at college and even start a K-pop club! I was busy but had a really good time. I had some crushes on guys and almost got the courage to ask one out, though those didn't end up going anywhere---and honestly, I'm glad! Everything that was meant to happen happened in time.

And then after the semester ended, I got to go to FREAKING KOREA!! I'm still so happy I got the chance to go there. I hadn't been on an actual vacation since I was probably six or seven, and even then that was nowhere near as cool as Korea! I won't go into too much detail, since my posts are up here for y'all to go read, but it was so cool and a life-changing experience that really made me want to travel and see the world! It was INSANELY cool and I really hope I get to go again!

Then I had an amazing summer. I hung out with Blue and Green a ton and we had a lot of amazing fun antics! I went back to work at a local grocery store, like I had the previous summer, and met Red, my work bestie, and some other work friends! My work life was a lot more fun than before. And, one particularly amazing thing came from that job... a really cute, really sweet guy asked me out one night! He had come through my lane before and developed a little crush on me so when he saw me a couple weeks later he asked me out. :) He became my first date and my first kiss! And that guy is now my wonderful, amazing, unbeatable boyfriend Grey!

I also had some romantic false leads---my love life was surprisingly active all of a sudden this summer! It's funny now to look back at my thoughts on those other guys at the time. It took me a bit to be sure about Grey, but now I've never been surer about anything. I really believe Grey's my soulmate. <3 Grey, if you're reading this, I love you so much! I can't understate it. Grey's so accepting, understanding, mature and loving. I didn't even know if I could ever find a guy who'd be okay with me being trans! But he's so insanely supportive about everything, and he's also a major goofball and a fellow gamer. :)

Granted, the summer wasn't perfect, even love life-wise---I did have a big heartbreak---but I wouldn't trade any of it for anything. And at least that heartbreak helped me to know that Grey was for real, and trustworthy, when we started dating. :)

This semester was realllllly busy (never taking that many credits again!) but I got to develop my club and my friendships even more. I think I'm finally beginning to see who my best friends at college are! :)

Over Thanksgiving break, after talking with Blue inspired me to seize the day---or, I suppose, the guy---Grey and I became official! And shortly afterward, we said our first I love yous. <3 It was all so exciting and still is!

I also got a hyperfixation on Legally Blonde: The Musical this semester! And I got to go visit Blue out west at his college! And finally, Verivery FINALLY had a comeback this December AND got a win for it!!!

And I got to meet Grey's family and friends recently and everything seems to be going well. :) I'm so in love with him and I'm so happy to have him. I'm also so happy to have all my amazing friends, to go to a nice school, and everything else---and to have this blog! I love blogging here and I hope you guys like reading it. :)

This has been a great year and 2026 has so much in store! If you had a good year, I'm thankful for you, and if not, I hope and pray 2026 has unexpected blessings for you. <3 I'm so looking forward to it! Happy new year, everyone! I'm off to go have lunch with some old friends and then celebrate with Grey tonight!

Well, it's finals week around here, and I am... stressed!! I had a bit of a mental breakdown over the weekend for unrelated reasons, and earlier today and yesterday felt poorly because, in my infinite hubris, I ate cookie dough I had let sit out for a while on Friday night before putting back in the freezer. Don't do that!! I had to cancel plans because of it.

I'm pretty much done, though! With a "Chip On My Shoulder", I finished my creative writing portfolio and English essay on time despite my mental breakdown, and now all that's left is an education not-really-exam tomorrow and a final paper for my linguistics class due Thursday---so I don't have too, too much to work on!

Special shoutout to my boyfriend Grey, whom I'm video calling right now. :) Love you!

I'm thankful for a lot of things this year, so i thought I'd make a little post saying a few things I'm grateful for!

• My friends! I've cemented a lot of my friendships this year, both new at college and with people from high school that I've kept in contact with, and deepened my existing friendships. Each of my friends brings something different to my life and I'm so thankful for each of them, who brighten my days in different ways. :)
• My amazing boyfriend! From our uber-sweet meeting story to now, Grey's never ceased to shower me with affection and treat me so sweetly, and he's just the cutest, handsomest guy ever, and he's funny and really cool! I think I won the lottery with him. He's the best! :)
• My trip to Korea! I've loved K-culture for so long, but I never thought I'd be able to actually get to go to Korea, so it's a freaking miracle that my Travelbug Aunt just so happened to be going there and my mum and I just so happened to be able to afford it and everything! It was so amazing and one of the highlights of my year for sure!!
• I just had the best summer vacation I've ever had in general! I had a great time even at work, and got to do a tonne of stuff with my best friends and just generally have an amazing time. Plus, I met a certain special fella towards the end of the summer. :3
• For the most part, I've had great classes, and even the ones I haven't liked have still helped me somehow. I think I've also just developed a much more positive mindset this year with regards to school/generally doing things I don't want to!
• VERIVERY ARE HAVING A COMEBACK!! All the amazing stuff in my personal life PLUS Verivery FINALLY having a comeback is cementing 2025 as the best year of my life so far. Plus Girls' Generation released a new song and it wasn't even an anniversary year!
• And I have great things on the horizon--studying abroad, for one!!

That's everything I can think of! I hope you guys have had as great a 2025 as I have. :) I don't know how but this year turned out really good! And I'm also so thankful for everyone who checks out my Web site and/or reads my blog as these are my passion projects! :D Thanks so much for reading and I'll see you soon!

I've had three great days in a row! If you remember how I said this summer that I was going to make it my best summer ever (at least so far) (which I think I succeeded at, by the way), I think this is going to be my best Thanksgiving break yet as well! 2025 has been a really great year for me. It hasn’t been perfect, but I’ve had an amazing summer, and I got to visit Korea!! And I’ve solidified and deepened a lot of my friendships at college, and I got a boyfriend who’s amazing and wonderful, and I also got to go visit my best friend out west and it’s just generally really amazing!

Saturday, although I was sleepy, I had a nice time chilling most of the morning and afternoon, and my dad and I went out for lunch! We had a nice conversation and it was nice to actually bond with him for once--not a common occurrence. In the afternoon, I went to a thrift store and bought some books, and then hung out at the public library until it closed, where I managed to get my Windows XP laptop (which has been having serious charger issue, as if my MacBook not charging wasn't enough) to actually charge! Then in the evening, Grey and I went into town and had Korean for dinner! It was really great, although we over-ordered--we got kimbap and Korean fried chicken assuming that's all they would give you, but they also give every table fried rice and Korean pancakes. Yeah, we had a lot of leftovers. And that sweetheart insisted I take them all!

Then we drove around for a while, trying to find a nice place to park and just sit and stargaze and relax, but we kept getting lost. But that just made it more of a fun adventure! We eventually just settled on a school parking lot outside of town, and we chatted, and cuddled, and looked at each other's photo libraries and started watching the first episode of Gilmore Girls on my iPod! Partway through we went to a convenience store to use the bathroom, and we got some soda and Skittles. It was a really great evening--and definitely one to remember!

Then yesterday, I had another relaxing morning and I talked with Blue on the phone. I’ve been worrying about whether or not I was 100% “ready” or whatever to make it official with Grey—which, I think, grew out of my whole love triangle dilemma type thing from a few months ago—but talking to Blue convinced me that I had to take life by the balls (so to speak) and just make it official! So I did. :) and it just so happened to be on the four-month anniversary of him asking me out!

And then I went into town and hung out with Ink at the mall! I saw her at Legally Blonde since she was part of that production, but beside that I hadn’t seen her in probably a year! We went to the food court and had lunch and complained about our respective professors/classmates, and then we walked around a bunch of stores and bought some stuff. The mall was having this little fair-type thing for local vendors to come in and sell, stuff so we found some cool stuff. Ink found this massive knit (crocheted?) mushroom cat and I found A) a little Stardew Valley chicken for me and B) part of Grey and Green’s Christmas gifts! Besides that, I acted as Eggshell’s personal shopper and bought him some fuzzy Bluey pyjama pants. I also got some mascara (which I had a minor fumble disaster applying this morning).

After that, we went to Five Below. I got Marble’s Christmas gift, and some Hello Kitty instant ramen (which is realllly good) and got myself a little Bluetooth lip phone thing that connects to my flip phone! Whenever I get or make a call, I can pick it up and talk from it. It’s almost like having a home phone! Except that I can’t actually make calls from it, and it also doesn’t ring. :( But maybe there’s one like that out there!

This morning Grey and I had a really nice date. :) First, we went to this little café in town where I got a pain au chocolat and an Earl Grey tea (although I think I let it steep too long), and then we went to the public library for a cute little study date. I was working on trying to figure out my XP laptop’s antivirus situation—which I got distracted and hyperfocused on (-_-) —and on my English final paper! It’s not due for another two weeks, but I figured it’d be good to get a head start! Look at me, being such a dutiful student! And I got a page and a half out of the four-to-six-page requirement done. So I’ll have an easier week next week! Although I didn’t get to A) working on my linguistics lesson plan project or B) e-mailing my creative writing professor about his bogus feedback on my short story like I meant to. (Okay, maybe the conflict wasn’t fully developed, but “no discernible main character and no real conflict” is bull. Especially considering the main character’s NAME is in the TITLE and she is the ONLY person whose thoughts we actually follow.) But I can do that tonight and tomorrow!

Then, Grey and I went out to get ramen for lunch! It was very yummy. I also got some mango lemonade! It reminded me of our first date, where I had mango boba. :) Grey’s totally great, but I think my favourite thing about him is how open he makes me feel. I feel like I can really be myself freely around him—I don’t have to mask my neurodivergency at all, and (although it’s still hard) I can open up about stuff as well. He’s really amazing. :) If you’re reading this, mwah! :3

Then I came home and watched The Paper—which I really like so far! Although I’ve only watched two episodes. But I like it. Esmerelda is my favourite character! And then I ended up taking a nap. I’ve been staying up late lately (ha) although I’m determined to change that tonight. Speaking of stuff that needs to happen tonight, I need to go heat up my leftovers from the Korean place for dinner! Toodles, everyone! :)

It's been a long time! I've been very busy. Finals time is around the corner looming scarily, even though it's been a week and a half since Halloween! So I've been insanely busy lately, and it feels like I haven't gotten a break in forever.

I went to my summer job work bestie Red's Halloween party on Halloween! It was just me, her and her best friend, and then her roommate and the twenty people he invited. So the three of us hid out in the kitchen until her best friend left since he had work early, and then the roommate and all his friends went to an afterparty. Our cool older cousin-vibes coworker brought his adorable little daughter over to trick or treat as well!! She was the cutest, shiest little princess. :) I about died! (But no, Blue, if you're reading, that doesn't mean I'm going to have a kid yet! LOL) Then Red and I watched weird YouTube videos from back in the day for a few hours (which is my kind of party) until after midnight, and I went home.

The next day I went on a date with the fella I've been dating! Let's call him Grey, because my favourite hoodie of his is grey. :) Anyways, we went out for lunch, and then went thrifting, where we both got some cute clothes, and then had a cute little pizza dinner watching the sunset and got some yummy cookies!

Since then, my life has mostly been unnoteworthy. I'm becoming hyperfixated on Legally Blonde: The Musical, even though it's been quite a while since I saw it! I also went round to a friend's house to play Mario Party on Friday night, which was really fun!

At least I've gotten some time to read a book lately. It's a great reprieve from everything--which is sorely needed, because I've been so busy! I had a draft of a twenty-page paper due Tuesday in my education class, which was a struggle to get done, and then there's been everything else afterwards as well. I'm totally exhausted, and there's still two more weeks to Thanksgiving break!

I am NEVER taking this many credit hours again. I think I've learned my lesson.

Now, off to make some lunch! It's a nice, cold, cozy day so maybe some pasta? I'm excited!

So I had a really great night last night! I spent the morning doing homework and got almost all of my homework done for Monday and Tuesday, which is a relief, at least. I do have a bit of English work left but that's not too much. And then I drove a couple hours to a different town! Ink, my high school theatre buddy, was stage manager on a production of Legally Blonde: The Musical at her college and so that guy I've been seeing and I went! We also had a little Olive Garden date beforehand and had a serious talk about our relationship. Basically, I told him that I really like him (which I do) but I'm not sure if it's quite the right time to become official yet, etc., and he was so understanding and sweet about it. I really don't know how I deserve such a great guy!

Legally Blonde was AMAZING. Seriously, I had never watched the movie or the musical before (beside that Illegally Blonde clip that was circulating on-line) and I DON'T KNOW HOW. This movie kind of embodies me. Elle Woods is seriously my new idol. I love her style and her courage. And her vintage iBook in the movie. :)

(From what clips I've seen---I still need to actually watch the movie! Also, the one thing that kind of ruined the play a bit for me was that they used more modern technology, like smartphones. I think Elle fits better not having a smartphone!)

And can we talk about the music? I think "Omigod You Guys" and "Gay Or European" are my favourite songs. I also love "Legally Blonde" and the remix but I hadn't heard those beforehand so I don't remember them as well. I remember a Yuri On Ice fan video (is that a throwback or what?) with "Gay Or European" from ages ago that was actually how I first heard it! When they started singing that song last night I was so hyped!! I squealed internally and was thinking of Yuri On Ice the whole time. Now that was an anime. (At least for me, someone who's only seen four...)

Today I've just been watching YouTube all day and doing nothing! It's nice to relax even if I feel a little bit too lazy. Toodles! :)

 I had a really great day yesterday! It was rainy, and although I did get rained on at one point, the main thing is the ambience! I was able to wear a cute, cozy sweater and a pleated skirt (and an infinity scarf), and I ended up sitting and reading in the school library in the evening! I love reading :D

I also had a TA-led study session last night for my linguistics class, since I have a quiz TODAY! AAAH! So I need to cram beforehand, but that shouldn't be too hard. I hope!! But I'm pretty confident for the most part. I should be able to pull a lot of experiences from my ESL teaching, since that's the area of linguistics my class is dealing with.

I also got into my study abroad university!!! YIPPEE!!!!!!!! :D :D :D And so next semester I'm going to be in freaking LONDONNNNNN!!! And Blue got into---well, I won't say for privacy, but a VERY GOOD UNIVERSITY IN ENGLAND!! So things are going very well and I'm quite jolly. Now if only I could get in bed an hour earlier.

My date Saturday went well---we had a nice Sonic dinner and went to Wal-Mart! i think that guy really likes me. Personally, I'm stuck in a love triangle, but that's a story for another time or potentially never. (It's quite anxiety-inducing, actually! One guy lives in my hometown and the other lives on the coast, but I haven't met the latter in person yet so I don't feel qualified to make a decision. This whole thing is a bit of a mess. BUT ENOUGH ABOUT THAT! Only happy things in this post!)

I'm gonna hang out with a friend tonight! And I'm gonna get a lot of homework done this afternoon. And now I have to go cram for my quiz---toodles!

I've had a pretty nice three-day weekend! I came home for Labour Day weekend and got pretty busy. I've done my homework and had some fun. I went to my work bestie's birthday party the other day, which was fun! I met some of her friends and saw her roommate again. We watched that Addams Family movie from the 90s, which was pretty good, although I don't know that I'd go out of my way to watch it again. Afterwards, we did the Bean Boozled challenge, which is... gross? I don't know what I was expecting. And we chatted until like 11, and my mother started wondering where I was. But my phone was on silent, so I didn't know. Which apparently nearly gave her a heart attack, but I saw her texts and calls eventually. She gets anxious easily.

And then yesterday I went on a date! I went to the mall with that guy I've been seeing, and it was really nice. He bought me some cookie cake and this shirt I had my eye on! I ended up buying myself an ILLIT album and some makeup as well! I don't know yet where it's going to go with him, but regardless he's so sweet. ^u^

Tonight I'm hoping to hang out with some of my friends from my k-pop club! I never get to hang out with them that much outside of the club, sadly---or at least not yet this year as I've been really busy. But I'm hoping to be less busy from here on out since it felt a bit more like I was falling behind. And I'm going to have my Monday-Wednesday-Friday afternoons wide open from here on to get a lot of work done. So I hope I can hang out with people more this semester and deepen my friendships!

That's about all. Toodle-oo!

Firstly, as an aside, I want to say happy 18th Girls' Generation debut anniversary! "Into The New World" is now officially old enough to vote, which makes a lot of sense, actually, considering that it's already been used in umpteen protests against corruption.

Anyways, yesterday I went down to visit the Cousins (#2-#4) and my grandparents on the old farm. We had lunch in the local diner, first of all, and my little cousins made a big deal of me and my mum being earlier than them, which is apparently impossible. Meanwhile, it took an age for us to get our food and certain cousins already started fighting, which put me in a sour mood. Things ended up quieting down eventually, though, and once we got back to the Farm I got some Minecraft time with #2--long-awaited, as usually #4 and sometimes #3 steal my attention away and he and I haven't gotten to hang out in ages.

#2, #3 and I (with our grandpa and their dad to make sure we didn't get lost and stranded) ended up going on a four-wheeler drive together later on! Which was really fun--I hadn't driven one in a long time. And instead of the pastures, as normal, we went around some nearby backroads! i got the wind in my hair, which I loved--despite the fact that I also got dust in my hair and had to wash it very vigorously after getting home. After that, we just chilled and had dinner. We left pretty late, but oh well. It was a relatively calm day with the family, although I did end up squabbling with two of my cousins, which I'm not proud of.

After we got home, i had a nice soothing bath and FaceTimed this guy I've been talking to. :) Speaking of, I'm going on a date tomorrow! With a different guy, actually, but still. My love life is surprisingly active this summer, considering hitherto everything was theoretical. Well, I've got to go take another soothing bath--ta ta!

Well, I honestly can't even remember last week because it seems really distant. This week's been a bit of a mess, to be honest. It feels kind of weird being this open about my personal life on here, but it just feels right, I guess. I had kind of danced around it in some earlier posts, because I didn't want to be premature, and I guess for good reason. I've been talking to this guy for several weeks now that I met on my trip to Korea. Or a bit after it, to be exact. I had to take my iPhone to Korea because my flip phone didn't work, and remembered whilst we were there that I had downloaded Hinge because I was bored back in fall.

Well, I opened it up again and set my location to Korea to see what it was like abroad, and this guy ended up liking me after I got back and forgot to set my location back to America. He was super understanding about me being trans, and even more so when I opened up about how I can come on a little strong in relationships but can also be scared of getting close to people emotionally. He was really cool and I really liked him, and he really liked me too. Not to over-idealize, but he really ticked just about every box. He was handsome, knew some of my K-pop (and was okay with my K-pop mania), he was intelligent and kind and funny, he even helped out at his church, for Heaven's sake! (Pun intended.) We'd text a lot and video call when we could, and it was great. He was the first guy I opened up to in a long time, and he kept telling me "as long as you feel safe and comfortable". And I did.

Well, a few days ago, I decided I had had enough of dancing around it all--because there was, or at least I felt like there was, a lot of hinting, and I told him "I really like you" outright. He said he really liked me too, and then I asked him where we were going to go from there. I worried that it might be too soon to be "official" or "exclusive" or whatever but I asked him what we were and if he wanted to be more. He said that we were "gang gang" and "tight", and when I asked for a real answer, he blocked me. Just like that.

I have a history of taking things too quickly with relationships in the past, but I really thought I was being better than that this time. I've been starting to work through my attachment issues or whatever, and I felt like I had a chance at a real, healthy relationship with him. Was I coming on too strongly? Maybe I was, maybe I was still rushing in too quickly. But at the same time, it feels so weird that this guy, who had been all understanding and emotionally intelligent, suddenly cut me off. It felt... wrong, like I had the rug pulled out from under me. My friends tell me that if he's willing to just block me all of a sudden instead of having an actual conversation, that he's not worth it. I agree, but part of me feels like... maybe if we had been calling or in the same room instead of texting, he would have had to give me an answer. I don't know how to feel.

It really took a lot out of me, and I spent two days doing absolutely nothing. He and I only knew each other a month, but I still grew to care about him, to really like him, in a more serious, real way than my fourteen-year-old self's attempts at dating. There's still a little part of me that hopes it was all some great misunderstanding, even though I know that's not true. And now a lot of things remind me of him--only a month and we already managed to have our little in-jokes. Spicy food, for one. And now I can't think of anime or the gym without thinking of him.

And honestly, I feel like he had been trying to distance himself from me earlier. He used the whole "I'm busy with work so we can't call" thing, but we still texted a lot. I'm not sure. I just really hope I didn't do anything--but I really need to stop blaming myself. I don't think it's healthy.

I really regret that it ended like that. I'm mad at him, but I can't stay mad. Even though he hurt me a lot more tangibly than, say, my annoying roommates last year, I can't stay mad for some reason. And so if you're reading this, Josh, I hope you're happy and I hope you can learn and be better to girls in the future--be willing to have the hard conversations you need to have. And I hope and pray I can find someone better soon, who'll be truly happy to be with me and with whom I'll be truly happy.