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Well, I accidentally hit the back button when I was almost through writing this entry, and the computer ate my entry. Bugger it all!

I've had quite a busy couple of days! Sunday the guy I've been seeing came up to visit. We watched Vine compilations on the TV all afternoon, slow danced a little and then went out to eat in the evening! It was amazing. :) Although I forgot how much fat steak has! It seems like a bit of a waste of money honestly.

Yesterday I was busy as hell from morning till night, and of course I had a bunch of laundry to do in the evening, which meant I was up until 1 AM. But I will be going to bed earlier tonight! I also popped over to the post office to mail Blue a letter, which was a nice errand! Although it's become really windy the past few days, and as someone with long-ish hair and bangs, it's less-than-ideal, although somehow through it all my hair has managed to look good!

Today's also been relatively busy. I wasn't able to get much done, but on Tuesdays and Thursdays I have a lot of classes and such, and so I didn't have a lot of free time when you consider that I also had to get my homework done. But at least I'll be able to relax some before bed! I also had a study session tonight with the TA for my linguistics class and we had some fun banter. It was really funny although I felt on occasion like it was too much, but she disagreed.

That's really it, I suppose. For such a jam-packed few days, you'd think I'd have more to talk about, but I guess you'd be wrong. Toodles!

This has been such a busy week! I meant to blog Tuesday but forgot, and I don't even remember what happened Tuesday. Wednesday was pretty good for all intents and purposes---I had a nice, long, chatty lunch with Auburn (fellow K-pop club member and one of my best friends), a study session with another friend, and finally dinner with my friend Forest. But for some reason, I felt really socially insecure when normally that would make me feel socially satisfied. This is a recurring problem---I find it hard to feel like I'm actually someone's friend even if they're one of my best friends. I constantly think my friends secretly hate my behind my back and/or are only putting up with me for XYZ reason. And I feel frustrated because, for whatever reason, in pretty much all my friendships I tend to be the planner, the one that's proposing stuff to do. It's relatively rare that a lot of these people come to me and ask "hey, do you wanna come over on X day?" or anything like that. And it's depressing.

I even have some people I thought were my friends that I'm beginning to doubt---namely, two people I'm in a club with that constantly act all bestie-bestie "you should come over to my apartment tonight" with a certain mutual friend in front of me, and then basically ignore me, when I thought we were all (with the addition of a couple others) a friend group. I get the "you should totally come over sometime" if I kind of hint that I'd like to, but that's not the same, and I'm not going to invite myself where I don't feel wanted. And I have other mutual friends with these people, and whenever I'm with them all, at lunch or something, I feel like they're very clearly prioritizing their other friend(s) over me. I'm just sick of it.

And I've been busy. I was working on a paper outline for my education class until 11 Wednesday night, without even having showered or anything, so I got in bed past 1, and I had some laundry to do last night that meant I didn't go to sleep till almost 1. I'm tired, and I have a whole laundry list (ha ha, very punny) of crap to do.

So basically, I'm stressed, tired, and oddly lonely for some reason, and feel like I have relatively few people I can rely on. Blue is one, but he's busy enough I don't want to bother him; my mum is one; the guy I've been seeing is one; and I have some friends here I feel kine of borderline about.

What do I do???

And now I'm off to do some homework... ugh.

This week has been really good so far! I feel like my social meter for the day isn't quite full enough yet, but I'm hanging out with some friends tonight that I haven't seen in a while, so that should do the trick!

I feel like both a lot and rather little has happened this week. Yesterday and today it's been quite rainy, which is always a real treat for me! And so I got to stay in and read last night, and crochet some, and call a certain guy. :) I've really underrated the pleasure of reading! I should read some more tonight once I get home.

I haven't had too, too much homework this week---actually, I had little enough last night that I finished it all before dinner! I've gotten to crochet some as well, and my hat is coming along seemingly quite well. (It's my first time crocheting something that isn't rectangular---or at least supposed to be!) And I'm finally (mostly) settled into a routine!

Besides that, my Vyvanse is going quite well, and it's finally becoming fall! Actually, I noticed this afternoon that the first leaves had started to collect on the ground. Only a few leaves on the trees have changed colour yet, but fall is coming and I'm excited! I finally get to romanticize college more.

I've been really grateful to be at college this week. I know it sounds weird, but I kind of really love it here! I get to learn so much, live somewhere beautiful and make so many amazing friends! Life's been pretty great this week, and I'm hoping and thinking that tomorrow's going to be a great finale to my school week! I have some fun plans this weekend, but those can wait for another post. :D

And so in the meantime, I hope you're having a great fall (or maybe not fall) day! I know I'm having a great fall week. ^u^

Well, in case you hadn't read the title, I'm now a Panic at the Disco songwriter!

What I actually am is putting off working on my statistics homework. I still have a few more questions on the study guide for the test, which is, oh yeah, tomorrow?!? And I can't remember how to do some of the stuff on here. Thank the good Lord that we get a formula sheet, because I'd be cooked otherwise, and I still might be lightly sautéed nonetheless. But it's only two and a half weeks until I never have to calculate another p-score again, and I'll be p-retty damn glad! Ha. Ha. Ha. You can tell I'm braindead from this stupid class because my puns are even lower-effort than usual.

I'm also mentally at odds with the student organization people at my college, because we can't make any more reservations for my k-pop club until we get approval on some paperwork and stuff, but the problem is that we've submitted everything as of yesterday and they're dragging their feet (or maybe they're just busy, but still) and our meetings are on Mondays, so if we don't get approval by tomorrow I don't know what the heck we're going to do?!? Maybe just hold it clandestinely in a hall lounge.

OK, update later and I only have two questions left on my study guide. But it's ridiculously late. When will I be able to get into bed at a decent hour?!? Perhaps this summer I'll be able to reset my routine--or maybe this weekend? And I've been on the computer all day, and I'm basically braindead, and I've not really had any free time today.

But that brings me to TWS! They had a comeback on Monday and I like all the tracks on the album! A lot of people have called it a sort of "Plot Twist 3.0", which makes sense as it sounds like the child of "Plot Twist" and "If I'm S, Will You Be My N?", but I still like it! Nick of the Bias List actually made an extended edit (as mentioned in the comment here) which he sent to me, and it inspired me to make my own! So maybe watch out for that soon when I get time?

And that's all, because it's getting late and ya girl needs to get in bed! Toodle-oo and talk to you soon!

I went home this past weekend for tax reasons, and was able to get back into my family's Netflix account (apparently, if you don't log into it at home every month or so you can't use it when away from home) and so today I sat down and watched some Gilmore Girls with my lunch! And it struck me that I feel very Rory Gilmore-esque today. This whole week, even, I feel like I will be very Rory-esque. (Except the fact that I'm writing this in my statistics class right now instead of paying attention... but I'm too busy for that today, in my defense!)

Well, to start, tonight I have to lead a club meeting, as well as an executive board meeting beforehand, so I had to write up an agenda and send out an e-mail, and this, that and the other. And for some reason, after having a very lovely and unstressful week last week, everything seems to have cooperated to make this week busy. I have a big essay due later on in the week that I was too exhausted (something to do with my allergies/allergy meds, I think?) to work on much over the weekend, like I had planned to do. And I have to do exec stuff for one club, and planning, and sign up to run for exec for another next semester. And I have some statistics assignments to do, and a French take-home quiz to do (which was also supposed to be done over the weekend, but my professor didn't send it until almost midnight on Saturday night), and a movie to watch for linguistics, and AGH!

I really don't know how Rory Gilmore was doing this busy extracurricular and studying-all-the-time stuff all throughout high school--I'm in college and it's still such a juggling act. I mean, I literally was juggling just before this class what could I do in class (anything on my computer, because I have the plausible deniability that I was "looking at slides" or something) and what would be gauche (breaking out a book and reading Frankenstein or finding citations for my Jane Eyre essay). I mean, one of the most engaged students in the class (always asking the teacher questions and such) is sitting on his phone right now and has been all class. But still, I do feel bad for not paying closer attention in class--perhaps what's keeping me from being like Rory Gilmore. Although even she had her terrible unacademic, crash-out-y moments during college (I don't want to spoil, but if you know you know!). So perhaps I'm not so unlike her after all, although she isn't a perfect aspirational figure anyway.

Well, I was going to start off this blog post with a little bit about how I feel right now (spoiler alert: it's super rainy and I saw some really cool clouds) but that turned into a whole different bit of writing, linked here!

But anyways, I'm having a super cozy morning. And I didn't have to do as much French homework as I thought I would have to do, since my professor didn't send me the poem I was supposed to "do" (do a read-aloud? a presentation? an interview with Victor friggin' Hugo about it?) for today. The other person who's also supposed to do one didn't get sent theirs either, so I suppose we'll just see how everything turns out in half an hour when I have class.

I've been quite busy this week. It feels like I have about fifty-three things to do, even though I'm not actually sure what all of them are. If I didn't have a planner, I'd be lost and/or dead right now. I just know I have some English reading to try and do before my French class, and then later I have a statistics case study I still haven't started on (ugh). But I'm having lunch with my friends from the (as of yet still unofficial since the student government won't get back to me like they should) K-pop club, and I'm not going to let that ruin my day! Sure, I may be busy, but I think I'm still going to have a pretty good day.

But yeah. I was going to do some other work on the site just now, but I think that'll have to wait until after my class. Sorry, y'all! :( But TTYL! :)