I can't believe it's over
May. 6th, 2026 06:57 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
purplehello98 Well, I'm sitting right now in Terminal 2 of Heathrow Airport (The Queen's Terminal, according to the big sign—and I also took the Elizabeth line this morning! So much is named after her) and in a bit over an hour when I take off, my study abroad experience will officially be over.
I'll try and do another post tomorrow (?) on my experiences the past couple weeks as I've been slacking on the blogging, though to be fair that's because I've been a combination of burnt out, busy having my last adventures and utterly exhausted. I'm so not setting an alarm tonight,
These four months have been both four of the hardest and four of the best of my life. I love London. I love the possibilities, the adventures, the fact that there's always something to do, the whole world congregated in one city. The thousand-year-old architecture in the same skyline as the twenty-first-century skyscrapers. I feel like London is the city. The old, the new, the planned, the spontaneous, all in one glorious city. It has this wealth, this richness, like nowhere else I've ever been. I've met lovely people and made what I hope will be lifelong friends here, and certainly made lifelong memories and favourite spots. I experienced the beauty that is good public transport infrastructure (I'm sorry, Brits, no matter how much you complain—try living in the Midwest before you tut about train delays).
Maybe a lot of this is similar to other cities, but I think London is its own city. It has this vibe like no other city I've been to in my (admittedly limited) travelling.
But then, it's also been really hard. I wasn't prepared for the workload, the you're-on-your-own sort of apathy academically that meant that I ended up floundering somewhat. I know Blue can back me up on this; the UK academic system is so independent and much more intensive compared to the US, and no matter how much I may complain about the US system, I feel like it's much more atuned to me than the British system, especially since I have ADHD. The lack of structure made things a ton harder for me and academically I was in hell the whole semester. AGH!!! I cried a lot and scrambled to get things done. (Which reminds me, I need to edit the video of my last project on the plane!!) I was burnt out and in genuine anguish like I've never been.
I also learned to love my home. I rag on Missouri a lot, and it's got its fair share of problems, which I'm sure I'll be complaining about in due time, but it also has a fun mall and I can drive places and crank music and it has my college, which I love, and most importantly the people I love. My boyfriend Grey, my parents, all my friends. I missed them all this semester and that also made me sad. I also miss iced tea at McDonald's (NO place has unsweet iced tea like McD's) and Panchero's burritos and especially American Chinese food! I miss orange chicken and lo mein and beef and broccoli and everything. Chopstix just doesn't hit like Panda! (Blogger's note: I realize I'm mentioning a lot of brands but I promise I'm not sponsored or anything!!! LOL I just miss the stuff we have in America.)
I don't know what else to say other than I love London so incredibly much, and I love Missouri so incredibly much. I'm glad to be going home, but sad to be leaving this glorious city, and I WILL be back! (this is a promise and a threat)
I've been so glad to call myself a Londoner for these four months, something I always dreamed of doing.
I love you, London! Until next time, toodles :)
I'll try and do another post tomorrow (?) on my experiences the past couple weeks as I've been slacking on the blogging, though to be fair that's because I've been a combination of burnt out, busy having my last adventures and utterly exhausted. I'm so not setting an alarm tonight,
These four months have been both four of the hardest and four of the best of my life. I love London. I love the possibilities, the adventures, the fact that there's always something to do, the whole world congregated in one city. The thousand-year-old architecture in the same skyline as the twenty-first-century skyscrapers. I feel like London is the city. The old, the new, the planned, the spontaneous, all in one glorious city. It has this wealth, this richness, like nowhere else I've ever been. I've met lovely people and made what I hope will be lifelong friends here, and certainly made lifelong memories and favourite spots. I experienced the beauty that is good public transport infrastructure (I'm sorry, Brits, no matter how much you complain—try living in the Midwest before you tut about train delays).
Maybe a lot of this is similar to other cities, but I think London is its own city. It has this vibe like no other city I've been to in my (admittedly limited) travelling.
But then, it's also been really hard. I wasn't prepared for the workload, the you're-on-your-own sort of apathy academically that meant that I ended up floundering somewhat. I know Blue can back me up on this; the UK academic system is so independent and much more intensive compared to the US, and no matter how much I may complain about the US system, I feel like it's much more atuned to me than the British system, especially since I have ADHD. The lack of structure made things a ton harder for me and academically I was in hell the whole semester. AGH!!! I cried a lot and scrambled to get things done. (Which reminds me, I need to edit the video of my last project on the plane!!) I was burnt out and in genuine anguish like I've never been.
I also learned to love my home. I rag on Missouri a lot, and it's got its fair share of problems, which I'm sure I'll be complaining about in due time, but it also has a fun mall and I can drive places and crank music and it has my college, which I love, and most importantly the people I love. My boyfriend Grey, my parents, all my friends. I missed them all this semester and that also made me sad. I also miss iced tea at McDonald's (NO place has unsweet iced tea like McD's) and Panchero's burritos and especially American Chinese food! I miss orange chicken and lo mein and beef and broccoli and everything. Chopstix just doesn't hit like Panda! (Blogger's note: I realize I'm mentioning a lot of brands but I promise I'm not sponsored or anything!!! LOL I just miss the stuff we have in America.)
I don't know what else to say other than I love London so incredibly much, and I love Missouri so incredibly much. I'm glad to be going home, but sad to be leaving this glorious city, and I WILL be back! (this is a promise and a threat)
I've been so glad to call myself a Londoner for these four months, something I always dreamed of doing.
I love you, London! Until next time, toodles :)
