PurpleHello98

I have a little bit over an hour before I have to slog off to work again. After that, I have tomorrow (Saturday) through Tuesday off, but then I work five days straight next week. Unless I start until 6 (which thankfully is the case for most days next week) I feel like I don't have have pretty much any actual... day, if that makes sense? I honestly think it might be nicer to work earlier mornings so I'd have an entire afternoon and evening ahead of me after work. Maybe I'll try that next summer!

But it doesn't really feel like I've had much of a life outside of work this past week. Today I had an eye appointment, yesterday I had a hair appointment, and the day before that I had... some appointment I can't remember. I want to work more on my hobbies--especially on my site/blog--for the rest of the summer but I can't figure out what to do. I don't have as much energy this week--I think that's one of the big problems. I keep on getting in bed late and/or having trouble getting to sleep. This happens a lot in the summer for some reason. Last night I was overthinking... something? I remember now: I'm talking to another guy post-Josh. Well, actually, he and I started talking ages ago but kind of drifted apart since we're both quite busy people. But after the whole Josh Ghosting Thing, after I started picking up the pieces, I realized I wanted to reach back out to this guy. (I won't share his name for privacy's sake.) He and I have been calling quite a lot, and I like him. My heart isn't fluttering quite as much as it was the first time round, but I feel more like I'm sticking to him somehow. We live in different parts of the country, but we've already agreed that if we're ever in the same place we're going to go on a date. :)

It feels way different to how it felt with Josh. This new guy is a lot busier so he doesn't have as much time to give me little bits of attention throughout the day, which is honestly a bummer because I kind of thrive on that. (Hence my overthinking last night--I'm worrying that I might be too clingy! I get kind of anxious when I go a a day without him texting me.) But at the same time, he likes to call a lot more, and even though I had more interests in common with Josh, I feel like this current guy and I almost connect more, like we're more on the same page, I guess. I don't really think we would've reconnected if there weren't something there... unless I was just desperate for male attention, which I really hope isn't the case. I especially don't want him to feel like a second choice or a rebound or anything--I don't want to do that to anyone.

But now I want to stick to this guy, almost stubbornly, I feel. I like him, I like talking to him, and I'm looking forward to an in-person date at this point. :) So let's hope that happens soon!

Anyways, I'm going to try and go to sleep early tonight and take some melatonin so I sleep well. And over my long weekend, I'm going to try and get some good work done on my closet decluttering. At this point, all I have left to do is sort through my clothes and pick which ones to get rid of! And then I'll have more time to work on hobbies, like my site and trying to write a good song!

P.S. Work is really pissing me off today! Any shift of 6 hours or more means I get two breaks, whereas for less than that I honestly get one. And guess how long I'm working tonight? Five hours and forty-five minutes. SERIOUSLY, PEOPLE?!?